Music speaks to me in a way that I have never been able to explain. Last night, Anny said “Music is the entrance to the spiritual realm.” And she’s so right. As a dancer, in case you didn’t know, you choose your music. And I'd like to say that you chose what would make the most money, what was most popular, but honestly, 90% of the songs are songs that spoke to you. Songs that expressed what the deepest part of your soul was feeling. You'd never admit that but really it was.
So as I began to become attune to this girl’s looks and feelings, the lyrics of the song that played began to pierce my soul. So much so that I began to scribble them on the clubs promo card that was lying on the table. I've added a picture of what I was able to scratch down. I didn't know the song, but as the words poured over me, I felt for a moment as if this girl on the stage was speaking through the words. The look of hopelessness and despair that, I'm sure she unintentionally gave off, suddenly had words and real meaning...
Livin' with myself nothing but lies
I always thought I'd make it
But never knew I'd let it get so bad
Livin' with myself is all I have
I feel numb
I can't come to life
I feel like I'm frozen in time
Livin' in a world so cold, wasting away
Livin' in a shell with no soul
I'm too young to lose my soul
I'm too young to feel this old
So long, I'm left behind
I feel like I'm losing my mind
Do you ever feel me?
Do you ever look deep down inside
Starin' at your life, paralyzed?
The Free2BMe Project partnered with Eve’s Angels last night, that’s what we were doing there. And the setting above is how we ended our night. Before this there were 18 of us, current dancers, ex-dancers, pastors, prophets, children, women with no past and women still living in the pasts that some of us had left behind. We were one in a small room in a Methodist church on the corner of a college campus. God moved through that room. His love permeated each word that was spoken and I saw a glimpse of heaven here on earth. A place of healing, restoration and redemption, a place of unconditional love and forgiveness!
The God of the universes loves…the God of the universe is love…the God of the universe…oh the God of the universe… He is mighty and He alone is worthy of praise!
My prayer is that that girl on the stage would find her way to that room in a Methodist Church on the corner of a college campus…not so she can find us…but so that she can encounter and experience the love of the God of the universe that created her for so much more than hopelessness and despair…